I am sitting on a comfy bed in my Aunt’s house in Florida this morning. I leave for the Fort Lauderdale airport in about half an hour. Today is the big day! I feel so safe and ready because of all of the prayers that have been flowing over me, but boy is satan wanting to compromise that today. He tried to do all that he could to make my night before leaving a bad one. Sometimes I am delirious when I wake up. Being so excited to leave for Haiti, I woke up at 1:15am, turned off my alarms, made my bed, and showered while being half asleep and thinking that it was 7:15am. After the shower once I finally woke up, I realized what Satan was trying to do and I got back in bed and reset my alarms. He was trying to take rest from me and leave me feeling tired the next day. In the midst of my sleep, however, the devil persisted. I had one of the worst nightmares I have ever had in my life, which consisted of one of my friends being brutally tortured and killed by my old lady neighbor in my room. It was random but so vivid. I was doing everything I could to find my friend after she came over to my house. Then I walked into my room and saw a lump under my comforter. I won’t scare you with the details, but it was terrible. I felt like it was actually happening, with the smell and everything.
Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. -1 Peter 5:8-9
The devil tried so hard to ruin my night last night and leave me exhausted and scared going into Haiti today, but I owe it all to Jesus who is so much stronger than he who is in the world. I woke up early because of the nightmare and immediately began praying. Getting to be tested already, even before the trip has started, and turn to the Lord for comfort and feel His truth and love was such a positive start to my day. A morning like this reminds me how present the devil is in this world, seeking someone to devour, but how much more powerful and omnipresent the Holy Spirit is.
He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together. -Colossians 1:17
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. -Psalm 34:18
I know that Jesus is close to me today. I couldn’t take this leap of faith without Him. My whole family dropped me off at the airport at 5:00am yesterday morning to say goodbye. So now, excitement and gratuity to even get to go on this adventure is what I am left with. I have no reason to be scared or nervous because the Holy Spirit is with me. I will land in Haiti at 2:53pm (UTC) and I cannot wait!!
Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. -Isaiah 41:10
Thank you all for your love and prayers!! I so appreciate them.